Saturday, September 29, 2007

life sucks, and please dont tell me all I need is Jesus

12:43 AM Posted by: M., 5 comments

the rude awakening that life sucks is just that, rude. i have been really really realizing that over the past few years. There are no good countries to live in, no good places to work, no religion worth a damn. just life and death.

you can do good and it wont matter, you can cheat people and you will win. I watched the movie Fast Food Nation and it taught a good lesson--the good people in life will lose while the bad people rule over everyone and make all the money. it is true. i used to be an idealistic save-the-world-er and i have to hold onto that because it is the least of the evils, but we cant save the world. aid organizations are corrupt and assholes work at them, the government is full of terrible human beings, and fighting back just gets you killed.

sure there is momentary happiness, and plenty of reasons for smiling in the day, but if i look at the big picture, at this entire world, there is no choice but to despair.

so what's the point of life? i am not sure. i guess i will just live out my days like any other animal--find food, shelter, companionship and then die.

sorry for the depressing, but everyone has to figure out this stuff out sooner or later. i will probably feel better in the morning.


5 comments:

exapologist said...

I sympathize A LOT with what you say. I've felt this way for a good chunk of time. I think, however, that there are a number of things that make our lives intrinsically worthwhile. This is grounded in our natures.

So, for example, consider another biological species -- say, cats. They have a characteristic set of capacities, pattern of growth, and life pattern. They have relationships with other cats, but enjoy lots of time alone, doing their own thing. They *love* to sleep, and hunt, etc.. This is grounded in their genes. Thus, if they can fulfill their natures by actualizing their pattern of growth, capacities, and characteristic pattern of life, they *flourish*, and thus achieve a kind of *excellence*; if not, they languish, to varying degrees.

Similarly, human beings are members of a different species. They therefore have a different characteristic pattern of growth, set of capacities, and a characteristic pattern of life (or a variety of such). So, for example, beyond the basic needs of food and shelter, we desire relationships of various sorts. We also each have a set of talents. To the extent that we actualize these, we flourish, and thus achieve a kind of *excellence*; to the extent that we don't, we languish. This sort of view was first spelled out by ancient greek and chinese philosophers (e.g., Aristotle and Plato), but it seems to me that they were right.

Thus, it seems that there are objective goals, grounded in our biologican natures, that are intrinsically worthwhile (e.g., achieving excellence, i.e., actualizing our natures), such as pursuing a rich and diverse network of relationships, and perfecting the sort of talents we have -- whether in terms of a vocation or a hobby or both.

At any rate, reflection on and pursuit of these sorts of things "ground" my life when all else seems to be going to pot.

I hope you are in better spirits soon!

All the best,

EA

lowendaction said...

great insights EA.

marie,

It's funny you should be wrestling with this issue, because this is actually the subject of a script I've been working on recently. Basically it follows the discussion of a group of people who are disastisfied with our current state of life, and thus begin postulating alternate utopian realities. Through the magic of Hollywood, we then see the cast of characters live within their newly invented worlds, only to discover that they are not nearly as perfect as they sounded.

And so, after a few different versions of this, one is ultimately lead to the conclusion (I hope anyway;) that the world we presently live in, is actually quite perfect.

This of course having less to do with "good" and "nice", but reality and balance. If there was no struggle, then would we still bother to love, to care?

I don't think it was ever supposed to be about "saving the world" or making "everything all right" (no disrespect intended...just making a point). But what EA was referring to: making a positive impact your imediate surroundings.

Aren't these journey's fun???

Thanks for sharing! Stay strong.

jennypo said...

The Buddha said, "All life is suffering." Our culture calls this weakness. We like to put a nice face on, smile, and talk about something else, but ultimately, life is an awful lot of trouble for a little bit of fun.

I am not depressed. In fact, right at this moment I'm probably as happy as I've ever been in my life. But I have to say I think the Buddha had it right. Life just isn't worth the fun. It either has a purpose beyond itself to make it worthwhile, or else it just sucks.

lowendaction said...

sorry about the typos and incomplete senteces... I was in a hurry yesterday!!!

jennypo: I think you nailed it.

For me, the thought that these few minutes here on earth are all there is, is just depressing as all shit.

Our minds are designed to look at life and everything in between in layers, and so too do I regard our greater purpose and existance here.

Seriously, how boring and pointless would it be if all we are is a gloryfied ant colony? c'mon!

good times

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